Kelly

\Ok, The whole point of this entry to let everyone know that I got my Tragus (sp?) pierced yesterday! Yes it hurt....BUT.. not so much now!! I was so proud of myself. Congrats to my wifey (step) who got her tongue pierced, my kappa girls who got tattoos... Nibert who got her rook pierced and my love Hillary who also got her tragus pierced! Go us....

So now I have pics of my piercing and well a lot of other stuff too...

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Okay these are my drunk pics and well they are on a site and I can't steal them so the consist of me singing happy bday to my big sarah ( she's a blond and I'm in a pic w/ her and kellie from above) and just a lot of other funny pics that I'm drunk in hehe

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There.. enjoy my pics.. oh and I'm coming home tomorrow for six weeks.. YAY!!!!!!!!!

Well I haven't updated since like the 4th so I guess I'm due again. First of all... I stayed the night at Donnie's house last Thursday (the 7th) cause we went to his college on Friday and Saturday. His college is small like mine. Its a nice college. Not much to do up there, but thats about the same as at my college so we'll share the same boredom pain. Lori and Brittany also went with us. We drove down to a mall that is supposed to be somewhere between 25 to 40 mins away from his college. Well it definately took us three girls well over an hour to get there. We asked prolly like 15 people for directions. People up there suck at giving directions!!! They aren't clear enough. It was still fun though. I don't think I've laughed so much in my life in one day, and that's telling you something right there!

Since then I've been working out the ying yang because a girls gotta live! My countdown has officially started a month and 3 days til I'm in Marietta for 8 to 9 months! I've been getting to kow people down there through some site called the facebook. Its kinda nice. The people down there are so nice and everyone keeps saying they can't wait to meet me. We put a profile and a pic of ourselves on here and then poof ya make friends. hehe Its kinda neat! Kinda addicting also!

Uh, on monday ( i think) I went to see a movie w/ my cousin. It was dark water. It was a interesting movie. I thought it was a different movie I saw previews for but I was wrong. It was still good though. Which reminds me I need to find out if she's going to go to the Harry Potter thing at the mall tonight because it's coming out. I'm not like thrilled about it like I was when they first came out but I think I"m going to get this one because I've read all the other ones why stop now?

I don't know what I'm going to do about college and Donnie. He's the best boyfriend that I've had BY FAR!!! But Monday night he broke up w/ me, just to say he changed his mind like 8 hours later. Its not cause I don't like him and he doesn't like me, its just that we're going to be close to 200 miles away from one another. He doesn't want an long distance relationship and I understand that completely. I would rather  see him everyday intsead of like 4 or 5 days a month. The difference is... he has to see me more than that a month and I'm grateful for seeing him that much a month. So I don't know what we're going to do. Part of the agreement was that we'd give it a try a college or I wouldn't go back out w/ him because I'm not going to just date him and have him date me the second he leaves because that would be stupid of me to waste my time if that's the case. So we've decided to see how it goes. I definately WANT to stay close to him no matter what happens. For me to actually want to stay close to someone I've dated is weird, by far. Cause I've straight up told all my ex's that the chances of me being their friend if we ever were to break up were slim to none. So that tells ya something. So far we have decided if we break up that we'd like to try and date and see each other on the breaks and during the summer. I guess we'll  just have to see. Everything will work out the best for me and him in the long run. If we're meant to be well will and if not.. well I hope he stays my friend he's one of my bestfriends, and I wanna keep it that way no matter what.

Well I need to go wash clothes cause I gotta go to work today and then I"m going out w/ Miley, Allison and Kyle, Sarah and Steven, and Liz and Adam. I think  we're just gonna chill somewhere. Who knows??

I hope everyone is enjoying their summer!

I just got back from Donnie's house a couple of mins ago. Today we've officially been dating for 2 months. I'm excited. I have a lot of friends that have been dating the person they are with for like ever and don't think 2 months is anything but to me it is because, oh I don't know how to explain it. I guess I just really like Donnie. There is just something different about him. I don't plan on making this a long post but, I just wanted everyone to know that we've been together officially 2 months now. YEAH for us! Technically it has been 2 months and a day considering it is now the 25th but everyone gets my point!

Oh, and you guys are all bored stop in to see me I work sat. and sun. and I'm sure I"ll be bored!

I was just on my way home from Donnie's house and I definately almost hit a deer. I mean I came w/in feet from it. Thankfully my brakes are good enough that I didn't hit it or I would seriously have been upset. It would have hurt my car.. tear, and the poor deer... tear. I was on military on my way to get gas, so I continued on my journey and when I got to BP I definately pulled in on the wrong side and got out before I noticed that the pump was on the other side. I know that! duh! I was just soo shook up and then I was embarrassed becuase I knew the guy inside would think I was an idiot so I went down the street to Speedway. Thankfully I pulled in on the right side of my car. Whew. I'm an idiot and thats my idiot experience for the night. Well other than when Donnie asked me a question and I took it the wrong way BIG time. But thats a story just for us :)

Hey kids.. Back again. First of all I have my schedule for college already so I might as well post it :)

On Mon., Wed, and Fri. I have in order:

Math from 10am to 10:50am

English 11am to 11:50am

Chemistry 1pm to 1:50pm

Then on Mon and Wed I have band from 5pm to 6:30 pm (latest classes and they aren't really a class, just doing what I love to do)

On Wed and Fri I have FYSE 102 ( a required course) from 2pm to 2:50pm

On Tues and Thru. I have FYSE 101 ( have to take it too) from 11am to 12:15 pm

On Tue I have a Chemistry lab from 1pm to 4pm ( LONG LAB, though I doubt it'll always be that long)

and Thur I have a Math Lab from 1pm to 2pm

I hardly have anything on Tuesdays and Thursdays, which is good because they are an hour and fifteen mins long instead of just 50 mins like monday, wed, and friday classes. I'm happy that I don't have a class before 10 o' clock which means I can sleep in. And they are basically all one after another except band which is nice so that I can just get them all over the for the day, and on friday's my last class ends at 2:50 YIPPIE. That way I can do what I want for the weeked after that. So if I go see Donnie I'll be able to leave and make it to his college before its dark out. Yippie. I won't go every weekend though... thats just to much.. one or 2 weekends a month. tops. I can't drive out every weekend. I'll have to go see him alot cause he can't leave his college cause he'll be in sports. Oh well I can do it, once I find my way that is.

Anways my weekend:

Friday I went to wally world and the mall with Liz. We got her scrapbook materials! Then I went to Donnie's house for a little while.

Saturday Donnie, my mom and I went to Marietta. We had to be there at 8am. I had to get up way to early hehe. I hope Donnie liked my school. I think he did. Then when we got home at around 5:30 or so we went to his house for dinner and then we went to crooksville races. My dad has been racing for 2 years now, so we went to see him. He really likes Donnie, which surprises me cause he's hated all my other boyfriends. Oh well I guess I got a good one this time :)

Sunday I had to work and then Donnie and I went to my dads house for Father's Day. My cousin made a big deal about my car so I had to take all of "us" kids for a ride. Its just a car. Oh well. I'm glad I got to see my cousins. I never get to see them its seems, even though I see them a lot in town. So after that Donnie and I rented "IT" from the Stephen King book. It was weird, but not scary thankfully. Donnie basically stayed the night. I ended up taking him home at like 5:30 in the morning. His mom called and my mom told her that we fell asleep. I'm glad he didn't get in trouble.

That's my weekend. Now I must get off here so that I can go get ready for work. JOY!

I know that I told everyone that I would put pics of donnie at gusmacker in so here they are. I will warn you though, there are A LOT cause I liked them all. Hehe..

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I know that that was a lot of pics of Donnie playing basketball. I've very proud him though. He's really good. I could never do that. I'm tired though so I'll update with my life next time. This one was all about him :)

First of all I want everyone to read this.. its very true for the most part. Everyone that is bold I agree 100% with, and some I will add some stuff in italicized at the end to clarify a little more :)

 51 things to know

1) You have to tell a girl how you feel about her...we make no assumptions.

2) It never hurts to work out...take your own advice.

3) Girls like sex just as much, if not more than guys.

4) Not all girls masturbate...we just don't and no we are not lying.

5) We hate porn.

6) Hmmmm... guys in Jeeps...yummmm...  or trucks...

7)Girls need food, water, and compliments to survive.

8) We think about you all the time....we really do

9) Being able to make us laugh is so much more important than how much you can bench-press.  I agree but its not a main point cause it's not hard to make me laugh

10) We may think you are gay if you wear tighty-whities on a regular basis.

11) Hold our hand...  it shows that you care and aren't ashamed of us

12) No backseat drivers...NONE...  not that all guys do

13) Girls generally don't like giving head, so you better be ready to reciprocate if and when you get it... haha

14) We are not your all-night restaurant.

15) Anything we say or do during that 4 days to a week each month cannot be held against us

16) If you hold our hand while you are driving we will be thoroughly impressed...especially if it's a stick... I can do it even.. but not w/ stick, I can't drive stick

17) Under no circumstances will we have a threesome.

18) You look hot in hooded articles of clothing.

19) If you think for any reason that we don't like you then we probably don't... not always true

20) Having us over while you and your friends play video games does not count as "quality time"... or if your on the net

21) Just because we groom ourselves on a regular basis does not mean we're high maintenance.

22) Never comment on how much a girl eats...ever.

23) Keep in mind that we withhold sex when we're mad at you, so you might wanna get around to apologizing... and if not sex then other things like kisses.. and such

24) You just can't force us to like sports...especially those associated with the WWF. I'm just not a fan of WWF I like school sports though

25) We're typically smarter than you...so get over it and stop whining when we get better grades than you.

26) If you do not own a wife-beater, stop reading this list, and go invest in one...right now... only if your not fat, like I'm one to talk

27) The ability to play the guitar will help you get laid.

28) We're sorry, Brad Pitt just IS hot...get over it!!!

29) Walks in the rain, kisses on the forehead, and cooking dinner for us will get you everywhere.

30) Just because we're in a serious relationship doesn't mean we plan to marry you someday, so stop being so damn scared!!!.. don't be scared of us period.. or atleast not me. I don't bite, yet

31) If you're developing such good finger skills playing video games, you better put them to good use sometimes. <i> thats funny </i>

32) Anything you do or say to another girl that you wouldn't want us to know about is considered cheating...if you can tell us and you won't get in trouble then it must not be wrong.. just a hint

33) If we can admit that we're wrong, you'd better be able to do the same.

34) The excuse "I can't dance" is unacceptable...we'll appreciate the simple fact that you're trying.

35) On that note, if you refuse to dance, expect us to dance with other guys...and lots of them... hey if you won't dance does that mean we can't? NO.. so it's your fault 

36) Think before you speak...it'll make a world of difference...at times

37) Not all girls kiss on the first date, get over it...we're creatures of mystery.

38) Make fun of our clothes...prepare to die.

39) We don't always expect you to pay for us, but it doesn't hurt to at least offer everyone once in a while... and to let us pay

40) Tell us we're beautiful.

41) The "little things" in a relationship are really the biggest.

42) Foreplay isn't something we should have to ask for...it's a prerequisite.

43) Don't screw us over...especially if we have an older brother or protective guy friends...they will hunt you down and kill you. just don't screw us over..period

44) If you're gonna look at other girls, at least make sure we don't see you do it.

45) Just because we're still just "hanging out" doesn't make it ok to sleep with your ex-girlfriend, friend with benefits, etc. I dont' think I hae to worry bout that

46) No girl just wants to be your "friend with benefits".

47) We're sensitive too...be gentle (and we're not talking about our hearts here guys).

48) One word when it comes to smoking...quit.

49) We reserve the right to hate all of your ex-girlfriends.

50) If we happen to trip, fall, etc, while wearing the exceptionally high shoes that we love, go ahead and laugh...we will be...that is unless we hurt ourselves... I laugh at myself all the time

51) We really love it when you call unexpectedly...it makes our day 100x better...especially if it’s not going well already.

 

Okay that was fun.. Its the truth though :)

 

I stole it from Shay.. hehe

Okay first off I"m not posting the pics tonight. It's to late to upload them and I have a doctors appointment in the morning. Joy! We need shots so that I'm premitted to go to college.

I just got back from donnie's house like 20 mins ago. I'm so tired. I really should be going to bed. I love hanging out with him though. And tonight was a good night for him. I love good nights, I can't help myself I'm a sucker for sweet guys and I deffinately hit the jackpot w/ this one :)

I've started to do what I call working out. I've been riding the bike downstairs in the basement for the past 3 days and each day I've ridden it 2 mins longer than the day before. I'm proud of myself. I knwo that I"m not going to atomatically be skinny by the end of the week but I'm really trying to work on it.And I also haven't had pop in over a week or 2 so everyone knows that I"m being serious about this.

Lastly, Anthony.. you need to let me know when your going to be working next because I get paid today and I'm planning on coming to buy that phone from ya. Hope that you can get it in sometime w/in the next month if you don't have them in stock though. I know I've heard ya complain before about getting phones in.

Well, I really haven't updated since graduation and thats been over a week ago so I guess it's time once again. First off. I know what I'm going to spend SOME of my graduation money on. I'm buying foglights for sure. Prolly going to stop in Friday or sometime this weekend. Then I'll have to pay adam to put them on. I'm so excited about that. I was going to spend $300 on these rims and tires (thats a good deal) but they won't fit my car cause I would need to have four lugs intsead of five. OH well.. So I"m just going to buy foglights and pay an extra payment on my car and save the rest. Friday I'm planning on getting a new flip phone from anthony. I've been working a freakish amount of hours so I'm going to have a check over $300 and I want to buy something that I really want with the extra money and I"ll have enough for the new phone I want! Congrats Donnie! He gets his phone today!! Hope ya like it :) Its a nextel. I like nextel's cause you can two way but I really like cingular cause I don't have roaming so when I go to college it won't be long distance. But I also heard that nextel doesn't charge long distance :S but I've heard they don't always get the best service in some areas.. so i guess its even!

Let's see what else? Oh yea.. I've been working a lot.. so everyone knows where they can find me on most nights!

I went to gus macker this weekend. I spent a total of 14 hrs there roughly. I was there 10 to 4 on saturday and 8 to 5 on sunday. I went with donnie to watch him play. He did really well in my eyes. I know that my opinion doesn't matter as much to him as other peoples but I still think he did great. He was by far the leading scorer on his team and I could never get out there and do that stuff so I say he did GREAT! I have like a billion pictures to post of him playing ball there, but I"ll do it later tonight. GOOD JOB DONNIE!

I really like Donnie.. I hope he knows that. He's having a really hard time right now with some stuff and I just want him to know that I'm always here and I"ll always support him. He's so great in my eyes. I never think he does anything poorly.. he's a great guy.

I'm so glad it summer. I love to just drive around and then hang out with all the kids in the evening.. justs parking and talking. I don't do it much.. but maybe I will a couple times more this summer cuase I only did it once last summer, but I know more people who do it this summer. So it'd be fun to do that every once in a while. We'll see though. Wonder if Donnie would like to do it? If not I know that I can convince liz to.. she's stupid enough to sign her life away for a night.. hehe j/k

I downloaded a new cd.. its a cruising cd. I love it.. its full of the good beats.

Well I'd better get off here but I'll post the pics lata tonight. I gotta get ready for work :(

There has been a lot going on in my life lately. First of all.. this past thursday I went to cedar point.. it was fun. Jen and I have offically been tagged pansies, but that's okay. Friday was senior slide show and graduation practice. Saturday I went to Donnie's graduation, and then his dad took his family and me and my mom out to eat at Olde Falls. Their food is good, I must go again so that Donnie can teach me to play pool. I mean its not hard to hit the balls, just getting them in the hole is the difficult part. I'm excited to learn. Which reminds he still owes me driving lessons, boy I'm letting him slack :) He really liked the graduation present I got him. It was a gold bracelet.  He got me a ring for graduation and I absolutely love it. Sunday I went to his graduation party and then to my graduation and then I had my graduation party. It was a busy day. Monday I had a parade to march in the rain and Donnie went to Cedar point. He'll be back tomorrow ( wed), I"m soo excited! Today, I went into school to work in the library for a little while and then I went to work. Joy Joy. Oh well money is money! Here are some pics of this past weeks events, though I haven't uploaded the ones from cedar point yet, but I will..

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Let's hope that worked! If not then I don't know what to do. I'm so happy that we're dating. Okay that was random, but yet very true. I don't know what else to write about so I"ll let everyone go. I"ll post more later and I"ll prolly have more pics. I like taking pics if you haven't noticed.

*edit* I wanted them just to come up like in a separate page but.. it didn't work :( oh well

Yes, today is graduation (sun)! I'm going to have to put pis on here of it. I went to Donnie's graduation earlier today (sat) and I have a really good pic of us together. I'll update more later when I'm not as tired but I like this pic.

Aren't we so cute together? Boy do I love this kid!

Okay first of all I have two completely different topics to talk about tonight and I have pics for both of them! Okay here is pic number one... and since I don't know how to do the link thing yet everyone gets to see me explain 5 pics on here cause thats how many I"m posting!

This is our smiling picture.. and no his head is freakishly bigger than mine his head is just closer to the camera than mine.. see the shadow on my face? Sorry someone commented about that. Okay next...

 This one is making fun of me actually.. I'm not trying to pick my nose but everytime I act like I'm thinking I put my finger on my mouth like I"m doing to him and in the picture "I"m trying to help him think" hehe. We're soo cute! One more of us..

 Okay, now for the story of this one.. go figure that we're making fun of me once again? Well we are.. when I"m being ornery and cute I stick my tongue out to him like that.. so I think he's got the face down because he deffinately looks up to something. hehe

 

I don't know if you guys can tell or not but I really enjoy my time with him. I find that I like him more and more everytime that I see him. I"m going to be so sad when we go opposite ways to college. He's going towards Cleveland and I"m going to Marietta so who knows? I was thinking though. I'll prolly go up to see most of his home football and basketball games and if he's playing an away game thats close to my school I"ll prolly go see him then to, and the same with basketball.. and then when he's not involved in sports we can see each other every other weekend and one person will drive to the others school once a month and we'd still see each other two weekends out of the month. We should be fine, course this also only applies to if he'll want to see me that often and if we're still dating. I hope that we will be though. I'm also going to start on a scrapbook for us this weekend cause I've got a lot of prom pictures and he said that he wanted to help so this should be both ineteresting and fun.

Now next pictures.. they're of tonight at the band banquet. I'm really sad to be leaving band and we found out that next years show is "Earth, Wind and Fire" I'm soo sad so I"m just going to post the pics tonight and explain it more in my next entry because I don't want to cry tonight.. so here they are...

 This is a pic of all the seniors with Ms. B. We made her a blanket and the blanket has pictures of the seniors on it.. Well some of us made the blanker (I helped) others just took credit.

  From Left: Molly, Miley, Jen and myself. We're really close! Miley, Jen and myself mostly but we're also close to Molly, just not as close. Aren't we a hot bunch of girls?? Damn right.. hehe

Okay I"m out. I"ll talk more about the banquet sometime when I'm a little less emotional.

Hey Hey! How has everyone been doing? I'm great! This past saturday I got my prom dress. Its yellow.. Think it matches me?? I sure do.. and it almost matches my car.. almost.Its a little lighter than my car, but its still totally awesome! I must get a picture and post it for everyone to see.

I hung out all weekend with Donnie. He asked me out on Saturday but I told him that I didn't want a boyfriend right now. I told him that I do like him though.. soo we're just going to keep hanging out and I'm sure I'll come around. He started annoying me Sunday but we're good now. I think I know why also. With Robby and Chad I wasn't really used to someone who treated me like a princess. Yea they did for a while but it quickly wore off. See Donnie always opens the doors for me AND my friends. He's an actually gentleman. We've made out and stuff and he hasn't tried to get up my shirt like most guys (Robby and Chad did) I guess I'm just not used to this treatmeant. We go out and he HAS to pay for everything. Wait no I got to pay for a movie the other weekend so I take that back. Another thing that is odd is I was as my mom puts it "motherly" to Chad and Robby. I always had to tell Chad to eat healthy because of his disease and Robby is the most unmotivated person I know.. so you know how that went. I had to tell both Robby and Chad to shave their face like all the time and he does this stuff on his own. I'm so excited! I get nervous when I go to meet him places.. oh I'm soo excited. So I'm really starting to like him.

I forgot to tell everyone that I get to go to 2 proms this year. Mine on May 7th and his on April 30th. My dress was really expensive.. but I made up for it cause I'm only buying shoes, jewelry, and getting my nails done. My friend is going to do my hair for both nights and we're eating at his house on his prom and a friend of mines house for my prom. Me and a friend are also making our flowers for prom!! IT ONLY COST $7 to get the stuff. Talk about a good deal. I need to go w/ Donnie tomorrow to get his tux.

This weekend I'm hoping to learn how to drive stick. Hopefully he'll teach me! I also think we're going to do something outside on Saturday afternoon before I work and then we'll prolly lay out and watch the stars after I get off work. That is unless its to cold. Then again he's a big guy (tall) and he could keep me warm. I guess thats a idea.

I bought leather seat wipes for my car. They look really nice now!

I'd better be getting off here because Pete is coming to pick me up and we're going to Matt's house and I'm going to partake in them working on cars. I MAY learn something! Then I'm going to Donnie's house after he gets off work, so we'll see how that goes!

I've had an awesome week.. So why do I feel this way? Maybe I've just been out to late all this week. My week over view..

Monday: Had a fight w/ Robby... g-ma got sick didn't get home till 12:30.
Tuesday: Went to Steak n Shake w/ Matt and Pete... didn't get home till 12:30.
Wednesday: Robby and I broke up... called Matt and Pete came over till 11.
Thursday: Rode around w/ Pete till I had to work.. went home after work 9:30.
Friday: Worked.. Hung out w/ Pete home at 1am.
Saturday: Worked.. went to steak n shake w/ Donny and Jenn. Got home at 12:30.
Today: Worked.. went to Donny's cook out and got a movie w/ him.. home at 11:15.

I've had fun. I will admitt that! So why am I sad? I'm sad but I'm not. I miss Robby but I don't.. I'm soooo confused!!!! Okay anyways.. I really haven't cried over him.. until like 5 mins ago. Thats really weird cause I just had an awesome night with anoter guy...so why am I crying? I guess its just that yea Donny is tall, cute, nice and has a lot going for him he's still not Robby. I'm not saying that I want Robby back. Its just that Donny doesn't have that smile that makes me melt, and he doesn't kiss my forehead, and he doesn't rock me to sleep. ( I know its dumb cause duh he's not going to do that I've hung out w/ him twice) Robby did all that and thats what I miss. I miss all that stuff but I don't miss him treating me bad, and his lies (cause I know that he has), and the way he can make me feel like crap when I know that I didn't do anything. I don't miss him for those things. I just miss him. He could make me feel so good by doing almost absolutely nothing, but I know he never realized or stopped to even think or care about that. I know that he thought that I was obsessed w/ Matt but look I haven't done a thing with him since Tuesday. Don't get me wrong I've talked to him but I've not seen him. It just hurts that he didn't trust me. Even if he'd come back and say I'm sorry and I want to be together again. I couldn't do it.. I couldn't let myself. I can't take the yelling, name calling and degraded that he does. He's lied to me and I know that he has. I don't know if he has lied about everything but I know that what he's said has never been the entire truth, and in my heart I knew that. We all do.. I just chose to over look it. Anyways.. Pete's calling.. he'll listen.. I'll be strong again in a min. but I just wanted to remember my weak moment, so next time that I write I"ll be strong but I just had to let that go and maybe I'll start to heal. I love Robby and care about him but.. I can't be with him not right now. It kills me to be apart but it kills me to be together too. Atleast when we're not together it kills because of the good times we've had and how he can make me feel and not because of how when we're together he kills me with the way he argues and fights with me. I'll be better next time I promise everyone.. sorry.. if you read this long I'm really sorry.

X by the ones you HAVE done

( ) Snuck out of the house
(x) gotten lost in your city
( ) seen a shooting star
(x) been to any other countries besides the united states
( ) had a serious surgery
(x) taken a shower with a member of the opposite sex
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
( ) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
( ) done drugs
(x) had alcohol (but hardly enough to count.. half a beer once... diluted w/ pepsi)
(x) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose (koolaid and pop)
( ) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) made out in an elevator
( ) swore at your parents
(X) kicked a guy where it hurts
(x) been in love
( ) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
(x) ran over an animal and killed it (I'm not good w/ birds)
(x) broken a bone
( ) been high
(x) given someone a bruise
( ) skinny-dipped
( ) skipped school
( ) flashed someone
(x) had oral surgery (wisdom teeth are gone)
( ) seen a therapist
( ) done the splits
(x) played spin the bottle
( ) gotten stitches
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone..hehe
( ) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(X) kissed a member of the same sex (not in the same way)
( ) crashed into a friend's car she hit me!
( ) been to Japan
( ) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped
( ) shoplifted sorta
( ) been fired
( ) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) stole something from your job
( ) gone on a blind date
( ) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
(x) been to Europe
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
( ) seen someone die
( ) been to Africa
( ) Driven over 400 miles in one day
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane (had to get to Europe somehow)
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
( ) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been snowboarding
( ) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) Been moshing at a concert
( ) had real feelings for someone you knew only online
( ) taken partially nude/nude photos of yourself
( ) been in an abusive relationship
( ) lost a child
( ) gone to college
( ) graduated college
( ) done hard drugs
( ) tried killing yourself
(x) taken painkillers (not for the wrong reasons)
(x) love someone or miss someone right now



stolen from poisonedxcherry

Hehe.. thats a song. (just so everyone knows)

Things have been pretty good for me, yet then again they usually are. I wish that it was summer. I'm tired of looking at gloomy days and normally my bright yellow car makes me think of the sun becuse duhh the sun's birght but no right now its a little dirty. Not terribly bad but bad enoung that I look at it and go YUCK!

Today is Eric's 18th b-day. Happy B-day Eric!

Oh and interesting fact.. on either the 6th or the 7th I looked at the paper and 6 out of the 10 people that were in the "dead section" (can spell the real name) died on my b-day. So when it's Robby's b-day were going to see who killed more on there b-day. I know we're weird. It just kinda came about.

I should be updating some pictures here shortly since I got a new camera and all. Its awesome! But everyone already knows that.

Another thing. I will most like be changing my LJ name due to the fact that some people have been reading them that I don't want to read them or no long wish to have them read it..so I'll be changing my name and making my journal friends only. Anyone got any good names? Also if you would like to be added you'll have to let me know so that I"ll add you back.

Robby if you're on here you need to leave me a message back!

FIRSTS

01. First best friend: Allison Vousden
02. First car: Mercury Grand Marquis 1st that I bought though was 99 mustang
03. First crush: Andy Newton... 2nd grade
04. First kiss: I don't really remember his name.. andy something I think
05. First job: Kroger
06. First roommate: sister... slept in the same room for years

LASTS

01. Last kiss: Jennifer Welch on the ball drop.. hehe (it was the cheek)
02. Last good cry: New Years eve. I don't have bad cries
04. Last movie seen: Spider Man 2
05. Last beverage drank: Mountain Dew
06. Last food consumed: pizza and TCBY icecream
07. Last crush: I don't remember
08. Last phone call: g-ma to come pick me up from the school cause I got back from Florida.
09. Last time showered: Thursday night. I was on a bus overnight
10. Last shoes worn: k swiss
11. Last item bought: light up drum sticks a EPCOT
12. Last annoyance: I have them everyday
13. Last time wanting to die: never
14. Last time scolded: seems like everyday
15. Last bar/club you were at: none

RANDOM

01. who are your best friends? Liz, Jasmin, and my band friends
02. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? b/f yes g/f no
03. how long have you been together? year and a half tomorrow
04. how long was your longest? see above
05. have you ever cheated? never
06. been cheated on? yep
07. do you still talk to your childhood friends? most of them
08. How many best friends did you have growing up? 1 allison

FASHION

01. where is your favorite place to shop? AE and Aero
02. any tattoos or piercings? 3 piercings in ears
03. what's your favorite article of clothing? j'ai ne sais pas
04. what would you die without? friends
05. what's your favorite thing to buy? I don't much these days lately earrings

SPECIFICS

01. do you do drugs? no
02. what kind of shampoo do you use? sauve I love the different smells
03. what are you most scared of? I don't know
04. what are you listening to right now? Kenny Chesney "I go back"
05. where do you want to get married? in a church
06. how many buddies are online right now? 5
07. what would you change about yourself? I weighed 15 pounds less
08. pets? 6 cats and 2 rabbits

FAVORITES

01. color: yellow and orange (dead tie)
02. food: to many
03. boys' names: ...
04. girls' names:...
05. subjects in school: math and chem.
06. animals: cats and horses
07. sport: ...
08. perfume: ...
09. holiday: v-day
10. place you've traveled: either France or Florida

HAVE YOU EVER

01. given anyone a bath? nope
03. bungee jumped? no
04. made yourself throw up? no
05. skinny dipped? no
06: been in love? yes
07. made yourself cry to get out of trouble? nope
08. pictured your crush naked? no
09. actually seen your crush naked? there is a mirror in my bathroom but I try not to look (seriously)
10. cried when someone died? yes
11. lied? yes
12. fallen for a friend?no
13. been rejected? not really
14. rejected someone? yes
15. used someone? no
16. done something you regret? probably
17. had a threesome? never

CURRENT

01. clothes:pj's and A&F shirt
03. make-up: none
04. annoyance: ...
05. smell: air
06. favorite artist: uhh
07. desktop picture: me w/ my car
08. dvd in player: none
09. color of toenails: red but its mostly chipped off
10. weekend plans:none yet
11. frustrations: none

LAST PERSON

01. you touched: Robby
02. you IMed: Kristina Adolph
03. you saw: Robby he's sitting right here
04. you had dinner with: band kids
05. you kissed: Jennifer Welch (cheek)
06. you hugged: Kiel Lauer
07. you had drinks with: never

WHO DO YOU WANNA

01. kill: ....
02. slap: "alanat" or rather punch really
03. look like: ...
04. talk to offline: ...
05. talk to online: ...
06. kiss: Robby
07. visit: ...
08. hang out with more:Lots of peeps.. hehe I said peeps

I will soon be 18 as most of you know... it is now like 3 weeks away. In a way I want to do something that I haven't done before, just because I can. I don't wanna get a tatoo because I know I'll hate it when I'm like 30 years old. So I've been thinking of things that I could do. The only think that I could maybe maybe talk myself into is getting my belly button pierced. I don't like needles and I'm scared to do anything that would require inflicting pain upon myself, so I don't know if I'll get it done or not. If I do get it done it will have to be in like a condition where a friend will get hers done with me cause I know I couldn't do it by myself. So if anyone would like to step up to the plate and volunteer a needle going through their stomach (if you can talk me into getting it done)with me then maybe I"ll get it done. Oh and if you already have it done and it doesnt or does hurt drop me a line and tell me.. thanks

Oh and I wouldn't get it done unless Robby would hold my hand. I"m a wimp like that!

The snow is beginning to fall.. That really makes my day suck. There should only be one day with snow and thats Christmas. I hate snow I hate it I hate it!!!!!! First of all I basically killed myself sled riding one year, then incase everyone didn't notice snow is f-ing cold ( I'm a 90' kind of gal), and I'm scared to death to drive my car in the snow. It already looks bad enough because the outside is all dirty because of the rain that we've been having. I just don't wanna wreck it. Oh well, its gotta be over soon.. well hopefully.

 I have to work here in like 35 mins. It sucks cause I work everynight but I like the money. Then again if I got paid a little more I wouldn't have to work as much now would I.. Nothing I can do about it though.

I can't wait till Christmas. I love getting and giving presents. Oh and that also means no school Yippie!